(TL;DR: my laptop got stolen and I lost everything. I will never financially recover from this and I don't have the time to make music anymore due to my new job so it's very likely that I will never come back to making music again.)

Hello everyone.

I thought I should let you all know how everything is going since it has been almost 3 month, give or take, since I made an interaction.

On February 4th, I got accepted for a job in call center as a customer service representative in a business outsourcing company. It pays well enough, it's somewhat simple, it offers paid training, and it's in a new place with new people to meet. I was excited to finally have a job in this economy and finally be independent again. Seemingly, everything is well, and it still is, but it's not the job that I have a problem with here.

After I finished the online training, it was time for the physical training on site. That means that I had to move to another city so I don't have to be in transit for 6-7 hours a day. Unfortunately, there were either almost no place to move to, or the rent was stupidly expensive. That forced me to resort to shared apartments because I didn't want to lose a job just because I couldn't find a place to stay in. A couple of days later and I'm finally here in an apartment where I have to share with two other people. I really didn't want this as an introvert who values their privacy, but I really didn't have any choice. But hey, maybe it's a temporary place until I find another one more suitable place for me.

Fast forward to March 11th, I wake up and notice that one of my roommates is nowhere to be found since yesterday. I remember him telling me that his in debt and possibly has a blood feud with someone (this stuff is unfortunately common where I live, so it wasn't out of the ordinary). I was concerned, so I asked my other roommate about him and he told me that last time he spoke with him, he said that he had a better job opportunity with someone else and is moving to be closer to the job. I was little bummed that he didn't tell me, especially since I thought we were getting close, but I didn't think too much of it and wished him good luck. Me and my roommate even tried to give him a call to see how is he doing, but he doesn't respond. Maybe he is busy and will call us back when he is free!

The next morning I wake up nervous because it's the certification day at my job. This will determine whether I continue with the company or not. But really, all I have to do is just do my best and remember my training. And hey, after my shift is done, I can gather my stuff and spend my weekend with the family back home so it's not too bad, right? Unfortunately, as I'm pre gathering my stuff so I can just pick them up after the shift and travel back home, I can't find my laptop where I put it. Maybe I misplaced it somewhere, but I looked and can't find anywhere. This is when it hit me like a ton of bricks. All of these tech questions about my laptop, his determination to find me a better paying job, his well-educated manners and even the way he is clothed — it was all a facade and I just got robbed. I almost had a panic attack and went to my other roommate to tell him about it and he was incredibly shocked and angry. It turns out he "borrowed" a serious amount of cash from him too. We went to the landlord and he couldn't believe it either. He just came the month before and even paid for another month in rent in advance so it seemed and looked like he was better off and had no reason to steal. Unfortunately, I couldn't stay for much longer to investigate and morn, I had a test and I needed to go. Still, 7+ years of content and memories are now gone. Yes, that includes my entire music journey. Everything. It's gone forever. I barley held myself together that day and for the couple of weeks after it. If I couldn't trust a person who was supposed to live with me in the same place, them who I should trust?

And finally, fast forward to current day. I somehow passed the test despite everything, I filed multiple police reports, I'm still at the apartment and have no where to move to, I think I went through all stages of grief, and frankly I don't have anything of value to be stolen anymore, so I'm safe for now.

What does all of that mean at the end? Well, it's simply over. It's not me being a defeatist, I realistically just can't make music anymore. I will never financially recover from this robbery or even buy something like a used laptop, my shifts are rotational and ever-changing so it's impossible to make a schedule to make music, and it's very unlikely that I will ever have my laptop back due to the police being... the police, if you know what I mean. I'm currently trying my best to track down every bit if evidence I could gather and submit it to the police to stimulate the search a little bit, but there's so much I could do legally.

At this point, I'm not expecting anything and I'm at this state of numbness towards the situation. I'm so emotionally and physically exhausted from this situation and all I want right now is survival, peace, and for this backstabber to get his just deserts.

Anyways, I'm sorry for everyone who likes my music that it had to end this way. But I think it's only fair to let you guys know about what has been happening in my life that lead to this moment.

Thank you for the support, everyone! It has been such an amazing ride and I'm blessed to have a community like Newgrounds!

May you have a much better luck than I do and as always, have a nice day!